Surrender

As I revisited this blog after many months of inactivity, I found a short reflective draft on what it means to surrender, and what thoughts and feelings the idea awoke in me at the time (almost a year ago to the day). I feel a deep hunger for silence and meditation right now. Here is what I wrote:



The idea of Surrender takes many shapes in our minds: to some it means to give up, to others it means to give in to the hands of a crafty Creator, to many it means to give up our ideas of self, of right and wrong, and to open up to a clear experience of reality. What does Surrender mean to you?

To me, it means to let go. And as I think of letting go, and as I experience it in my daily life, it entails a constant effort to allow things as they are as I seize my personal stance and power. To let go of my want to be in control resembles a newborn being set free in the unpredictable waters of life, ever-trusting of our innate ability to float; and this feeling raises questions that seem to be pivotal for survival: what do I need to know before I take the jump? Am I ready, as a sentient being with evident weaknesses, to let go of my human notions of self and the world? What does letting go encompass? Is it a complete surrender of mentally-driven will, opening up to the present moment in a way that goes beyond my intellectual schemes? _________________________________

It is a vital question to ask ourselves what we believe in. It's not a test to label ourselves as religious or non-religious, atheist or believers, but rather a moment in which we give ourselves the space to experience our beliefs. Whatever you believe, it is ok - but you must be, not clear on, but aware of where you stand in terms of your origin and your essence.