The First Rant - Breaking the Ice

My first blog entry, WOOHOOOO!!! If I was to continue listening to my inner procrastinator, this would have never began - so I commend myself for placing my buttocks on this chair for a prolonged period of time, and acting beyond comfort in order to honor my higher Self. I'm compelled to acknowledge my dear friend Mike for supporting me unconditionally in my Journey, and ballyhoo-ing me to write this blog... thank you.

I feel like crying for all the things I don't understand, and for the ones I do, but don't manage to change. I know I tend to lose perspective. I know I can only do the best I can at any given moment. I also know the power to create the life I want is within me. I've been sitting among the thorns for too long, I've been dreading my imperfections too much, and most importantly, I haven't hula-hooped in way longer than I can handle.

I NEED CHANGE!!!

Here's a list of the things I want. Tomorrow I'll move on to the list of ways to achieve them:

- A new hula-hoop

- To meet and connect with swell people in my new town

- A DOG

- A DOG

- A DOG

- A DOG

- To cultivate my Spirit through meditation, Tai Chi, nature, etc.

- To beautify my room; Brian gave me a room in the house to do whatever the heck I wish - and I want to make it into the expression-creation-chill-ation room, but I haven't even began... talk about playing safe and being afraid of not making it "perfect"... yes, I hear what I'm saying with clarity - and I facepalm along with you

- To begin a strict (though gradual) exercise routine

- To eat healthier

- To send cards to my loved ones, expressing my innermost feelings for them

I have 86409568909468097 more things to add to this list, but for now I'll only list these. Gotta take it easy, and not let the sound of my own wheels make me crazy *wink wink*. I recognize my body and Spirit's calling for change, for a more challenging lifestyle, and I'm open and willing to make these modifications, one day, one minute at a time. Man, it can be so hard though... I've only had 2 days off this month and won't have another one until September arrives, and when I get home the couch potato spirit takes ahold of me and I'm done for. So much to do... *guttural sound*... I'll get it done.